9.30.2006
hii~
lolx...
haix...
wonder if it realli is my fault...
the first thing i knw tonite is zr is jealous of mii?!
wth?!
jealous of mii?
for wad?
ivan told mii is becos of zhuu ann...
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wad does it hav to do wif mii?
jus becos she told mii somethings n nver told him...
hw childish can he be?
cant he even trust her for 1 moment?
she is his stead n he dun even trust her...
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i am speechless nw...
dun even nw wad de god damn fuck is zr thinking...
perhaps it is becos they still nd time...
haix...
he should trust her lor...
haix...
dun believe he gets jealous over such small matters...
de past experience has realli changed a person's point of view...
his past...
i think tat is prob ba...
everyone has a past...
a different past...
onli time can prove things...
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today my younger sis's b-day...
having a party at my house -.-
de havoc created... haix...
kids...
hav to clean up aft them i guess...
i hav to bear everything tat happen...
perhaps i hav put too much pressure on myself...
haix...
4get it... i should jus focus on getting my studies rite...
n appreciate those around mii...
signing off~]
leon~]
Time...
it sometimes wait for a person...
bt it can oso forsake a person...
everyone nds it...
so do i...
bt i wish i could wait for mii...
30.9.06... Darkness. Light. which to side?
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9.28.2006
hii~
haven update my blog for quite a period of time liao...
hahax...
nt much happen so didnt bother to update =p
my body seems to be getting weaker day by day...
de stress... ><
de pressure... ><
haix... nd to last for another 1-2wks...
dont even knw if i can last tat long... ><
hate exams...
bt no choice have to them as long as i still study in tat schl... ><
gotta try my best to do well in order to promote to sec4...
dun wanna waste another year in n(a) or 3E...
so gotta buck up n chiong last min study lor...
i dun wan to disappoint anyone... bt...
i dun even knw if i could hold on to de promise i made to her...
de promise tat i will hold on to 4eva...
so i mus be stronger...
no nt jus stronger... i hav to be de best...
i hav to be de strongest...
onli den will i fulfill my promise to her...
i will fight to de end like a samurai...
i should nt disappoint anyone who let their hopes live within mii...
tis is a battle wish i hav to win...
even if it is a losing battle... i will hung on to de last hope tat live within mii...
i should wield de strongest sword in de world...
my heart 'n' my soul...
i should nt fail my exams...
i hav to be de strongest tats y i hav to last all de way...
wish mii all de luck for my exams... =p
signing off,]
leon~]
i wield de strongest sword in de world.
nth should stop mii frm my goals.
let ur hope run in mii as my heart n soul,
let ur hope run in mii as motivation.
let mii hav de chance to show de world wad i am capable of.
28.9.06... Darkness. Light. which to side?
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9.19.2006
i am so tired of everything...
if onli i could 4get who i am...
if onli i could 4get who my fres r...
if onli i could 4get u...
y couldn't i let go?
y couldn''t i let go of u when i wans to?
sitting down in my bedroom facing the four solid walls...
i couldn't help bt think of u...
i wish i wouldn't...
bt i couldn't..
half of mii wans to delete everything n start all over again...
bt the half wans to preserve the past...
i realli wish to start over again...
i realli wish to start a brand new life wif out u...
bt i couldn't...
is it fate or my own stupidness?
i wan to knw...
i realli do...
UNDO by COOL JOKE
Far away, far away, our thoughts are ceaseless
If we can go back to those days
Of when we laughed innocently together...
It broke into pieces
It's like a work of glass
I'm gathering up pieces of my memory
You realize those important to you
After whenever you lose them
The world without you
Is like a jigsaw puzzle
It's still eternally missing pieces and incomplete
Because it's impossible
For anyone to replace you
Please, please stop the time
And carve your silhouette onto my chest
If, if it's allowed
It's okay even if i sacrificed everything
For that smiling face once more...
By the chain that's called "reality"
We are connected
Even though we arem't granted to dream
Nevertheless, we'll keep on searching
For the light that illuminates darkness
Far away, far away, our thoughts are ceaseless
For those days of when we laughed innocently together
Please, please stop time
And carve your silhouette onto my chest
If, if it's allowed
It's okay even if i sacrificed everything
For that smiling face once more...
Once more...
i'm tired, v v tired...
all i want nw is to lay down on my bed n nver wake up...
as least i'm free frm all my troubles...
signing off~
leon~ ><
*wishing upon a falling star*
(Pls let mii see her smile again, all i wan is to see her smile again)
hahax~
19.9.06... Darkness. Light. which to side?
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9.18.2006
i watch u walk away...
bt i didn't do anything...
hw come i feel no pain?
hw come i hav no expression?
i want u to stay by my side...
bt i couldn't...
so wad if u r by my side...
u heart is nver wif mii...
therefore i chose to walk away...
to walk away frm u...
to walk away frm the memories we hav...
to walk away frm wad i wish to hav...
ai qing bu ke yi mian qiang...
since u hav the 1 u love...
i should walk away n nver to come bck...
i don't wish to let u see hw i am nw...
i dun wan u to feel guilty...
i wan u to live on as a happi gal wif a caring stead...
wad has past, has past...
no use trying to clinch on to it...
to lose is to gain, to gain is to lose...
it is my own choice...
i wish nt of u to blame it on urself...
><
hahax~
zr n zhuu ann stead sia...
so happy for them...
gratz to zr n zhuu ann frm MII!!!
hahax~
yl oso...
he omost break wif yt sia...
bt in the end nver break...
=.=
v stupid sia...
lolx~
hahax~
signing off~
leon~ ><
*wishing over a shooting star*
(i wish all the couple i knw, hav a caring n loving lovelife)
hahax~ =D
18.9.06... Darkness. Light. which to side?
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9.16.2006
erm...
y does it hurt?
y does it hurt my heart to see u so sad?
wad is wrong wif mii?
i am jus someone who stand by the side as everything walk past...
wad rite do i hav...
wad rite do i hav to even like u...
i guess i dun hav any...
n i dun wanna fight against a fren again...
espeacially a close fren...
i dun wanna fight...
i no longer hav the will to fight...
i wish onli for u to treat mii as a passerby...
let mii walk away frm everything...
let mii see ur smile again...
let mii knw u r happy...
let mii knw u r happy wif him...
let mii at least wish tat u hav the happiness tat u sought...
i no longer wish to see ur sad n unhappy face...
Colours of the Heart by UVERworld
On that day, my heart crumbled in silence
Even though I scream at being broken, inerasable memories and
Darkness flow into my eyes
And I sink into tomorrow whose colors can’t even be seen anymore
I endlessly searched for the day of reconciliation
Only for the sake of losing it, I will live for the present
Even when it is useless and I embrace solitude alone
If you turn on the lights…
I will shine towards them
“Feelings continuously filled with wishes will someday create colors”, that’s what I’ve been taught
To be a person who continues to live with this in the heart
Because Colors are born within anything and everything inevitable
I will paint tomorrow once more with these hands
I, who goes unnoticed, am even used to losing things
Even the things which were placed into my hands slipped through my fingers
Before my tears dry up, the words which I wanted to hear
Are now for the sake of saving someone
It’s all your fate. You gonna do that.
“If light becomes stronger, darkness will also become deeper”
Even if I realized that, I have nothing to fear]
Because Colors are born at the end of just about any kind of heart
My eyes are already open because we were gazing at each other
The Breath of sadness, I was searching for that to stain it in colors
Without raising a sound
“Feelings continuously filled with wishes will someday create colors”, that’s what I’ve been taught
To be a person who continues to live by this in the heart
Because Colors are born within anything and everything inevitable
They will illuminate once more within the fingertips of light
Just drawing… Colors in light and darkness
And take it… Colors in light and darkness
Now, the gentle colors which could not be reached
With these hands, I will use them to paint and fix everything again
tis song realli suits mii...
certain lines realli say abt wad i am feeling nw n den...
guess i will leave sooner or later...
guess no one will go n remember mii ...
signing off
leon ><
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9.15.2006
haix~
i wonder if tis few day is special days for couple to break?
first yl n yt...
den zr n joanne...
even though zr n joanne hasn't realli started bt still....
haix~
coincidence?
or heaven's will?
wad a day...
all sounded so fine n fake...
if onli i could turn bck time...
i would stop all of us frm even knwing each others...
wonder wad will tat be like?
weird? strange? adnormal?
had all of us nt meet in the first place...
perhaps all of tis wouldn't had happen...
god knw wad it will be like...
i feel like i am gambling every single choice n step i take...
no matter hw perfect something look...
it is nver perfect...
y heaven chose to play such a prank on mii?
no matter wad i do... wad choice i make...
the person who get hurt the most in the end still mii?!
y?! y am i the onli who could feel wad it is like to be played by god?
i had enough...
i wanna stop time once n for all...
even walking past strangers, i feel as though i am affected by their feelings...
i tried running away...
i tried ignoring....
i tried pretending as thought nth happened....
bt y am i still here the place where i started...
everyday i lose someone important...
i had enough... bt i cannt do anything abt it...
God Knows... by aya hirano
I run past others with a parched heart.
Sorry, I can't do anything else.
You won't even let me
Share our pain together.
To live on without tarnish,
I face your back and head out without looking back
on the lonely rail
I will follow you.
No matter how agonizing the world is,
You will shine even in its darkest corners.
Cross over the end of the future,
My weakness will not shatter my spirit.
my way is overlapping with yours.
For the two of us, God bless...
This warming affection that reaches me,
It melts my reality and roams my heart.
I don't need a reason for wanting to meet you,
Just my overflowing feelings, Lovin' you
For now, let's paint a beautiful dream
And chase after
for your lonely heart
Stop it, it's not like you to lie.
Look at my eyes and let's talk about our future.
I am prepared,
Even if the future is bleak,
I might be able to change destiny if I become stronger.
But for my wish to come true,
Everything is God knows...
You are here, I am here.
Everyone else has disappeared.
While we paint the beauty of this fleeting dream,
We trace out the lines of our scars.
That's why I will follow you.
No matter how agonizing the world is,
You will shine even in its darkest corners.
Cross over the end of the future,
My weakness will not shatter my spirit.
my way is overlapping with yours.
For the two of us, God bless...
i hav nth left onli an empty spirit n an unknown future...
wad will happen nxt?
i dunno...
i realli dunno...
if onli could knw wad my future is like...
the onli path i hav left is to wait for things to happen n see wad i could do to stop it...
signing off~
leon~ ><
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9.12.2006
hii~
hahax~
haven update my blog for a long time ><
hahax~ bt nvm...
i nw update =P
went to hong kong during my school holiday...
quite fun la...
disneyland there was fun bt abit too small... ><
gt scolded by ms liew(my el teacher) today... sianz
N i couldnt believe it...
yl n another gal who i knw stead...
the gal quite flirt la...
dun even knw y he actually like her... -.-
N poor zR...
he like joanne so much bt... haix...
y wun joanne accept him?!?
he is v v v serious abt tis relationship lor...
poor guy...
reminds mii of a lyric in "Northen Light"
Two souls torn apart,
Feelings of nowhere to go strangle my heart.
Why did we meet this day?
The way to ask this question
Vanishes into clear shadow.
quite sad sia...
the lyrics quite suitable for zR...
the song is a jap song so hav to translate to english ><
perhaps i should oso put the jap version in???
o well... might as well do it...
hikisakareta futatsu no kokoro
yukiba no nai omoi ga mune o shimetsuke
naze kono toki ni deatta no ka to
toikakeru sube wa
saeta kage ni chiru
hope joanne would understand the lyrics n accept zR....
hahax... ><
bye~
let us all wish zR all the luck he nd...
(wishing)
hahax~
12.9.06... Darkness. Light. which to side?
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